So here goes, I mean, I always knew that I was a horrible person.. but seriously I never imagined it this bad. Am I just cruel to everyone, do I push peple away on purpose. Am I doomed to live depressed?

I suppose I never often thought of this, in any manner for life had been great.

I said things I regretted, apologized, and tried to amend, but obviously there was no "fix" nor this "solution" one had thought of. I even felt hurt, can you imagine that.

Read this if you may, comment as you may, I don't think I could be hurt or crushed any more so.